I was then unemployed and I didn’t want to communicate with my family. I was just in my room all by myself. Before going to bed every night, I would think about what I would do the next day. I was afraid that I would have no income. When my family saw that my mental state was declining and noticed I also started having thoughts of suicide, they went with me to see a doctor. The doctor diagnosed me with high blood pressure and depression and referred me to a local centre to see a psychiatrist.
As I was seeing the doctor, my family also had someone from the church help me. This person was my primary school teacher. She spoke with me every week and would go to church with me. In the beginning, the doctor said there was no need to take medication, but as my condition worsened and became more serious to the point where I even began to have nightmares, the doctor suggested that I start taking medication. When I saw the doctor for the last time, he asked me if my life had improved. If it had, I wouldn’t need to have another follow up visit. I also saw a clinical psychologist. At that time, the treatment for depression was complete.
Nowadays at work and at church, I interact with children mainly. When I returned to the church, I really felt how important companionship is. The brothers and sisters at the church would talk to me every week and ask how I was doing, they were very open and accepting. So it happens, when I reach out my hand for help, someone was willing to help and accompany me on this journey. I have shared my story in church, in Mind HK sharing sessions, and in peer support groups in other organisations. These experiences have allowed me to restructure my life experiences and become someone who can share experiences with others. I hope that my experiences can bless and encourage others.
In Hong Kong culture, we have misunderstandings about mental illness; believing that they will bring out violent behaviour. But what is the most troubling is society’s comments on mental health. I hope we can all understand and accept and support people with mental health more. A small step taken by everyone will bring about big changes.