I used to work on life and career planning projects where I shared the importance of a plan with students. In 2020, I left my job and went back to school for further development.
However, as I don’t have a background in education, during my studies it was tough for me to catch up with classmates who were already teachers. I was perfectionistic and always pushed myself to move forward, but at the same time, I doubted my own abilities. Under the vicious cycle of extreme mindset, I experienced a series of psychosomatic symptoms. I sought help from a school counsellor as my supervising professor suggested, and that was my first time receiving psychological intervention.
My conversations with my counsellor were not very helpful, after a few months, my psychosomatic condition worsened. I was referred to a clinical psychologist and started receiving medical advice. At first I was resistant as I worried about being labelled as “weak”, “bad stress management”, “emotionally ill” and “needs medication forever”. Eventually, I was encouraged and supported by my family to accept psychological and medical treatment, and I believed that “as long as I stay safe and sound, I can become the world champion”.
In the process of recovery from anxiety and depression, I was supported by professionals, family, mentors and friends, and re-evaluated my values and my self-standards. I wasn’t determined to join the education sector, so I joined the innovation and technology field instead. I am also involved in government and NGO projects to encourage youth development and improve physical and mental well-being.
During my recovery journey, there were three important lessons.
First, to build my own support network.
Second, to design a self-compassion list that works for me.
Lastly, to appreciate myself more and accept who I am, as we all have different strengths and advantages.
